The Dad Relationship

You often remember the ones that have hurt you, and of course you remember the stories where you know you have truly hurt another. But there are so many stories that you forget, for you do not replay them in your mind. Yes, the stories you remember are the ones that you think about, over and over again. Yet, hidden deep within are the memories that need to be cleaned up from within. And so, I wanted to share one of these stories, that I had completely forgotten about. But after my week of Truforgiveness practice it was coming up asking to be truly forgiven and made clean.

I was walking this afternoon, and I noticed a learner driver pulling into a garage. Immediately my mind went back to when I was a teenager myself, learning to maneuver a car. I was in the driver's seat of my boyfriend's vehicle, with him in the passenger side. As we drove into his street I attempted to pull up. Out the front of his home. He continued to tell me to move into the driveway. There was a mixture of words thrown by both parties. My fear was growing worse. I kept saying “No.” He kept saying “Yes.” Before I knew it, I was steering into his driveway, with his hands also on the wheel (gratefully). Instead of breaking, when he told me to, I put my foot down harder on the accelerator. Rattled in this commotion. He was in fact screaming “Break. Break. Break.” Immediately, he turned the wheel and instead of me driving through the garage door I rammed the car bonnet into the brick fence. At the time his parents were outside saying goodbye to his aunt. They witnessed it all. Including our screaming match that ensued.

At the time I blamed him for making me continue to drive. Now that I am an adult, I can see the fault was within. Honestly, if I had enough trust I would have known ‘no’ was ‘no’ and set my boundary firm. Or perhaps I would have had the confidence to make the park seamlessly easy.

I had long ago forgotten about this, as well as the boy that was my protector through my youth. It was not a healthy love, but when I needed him he sure was there for me. And so, I walked today and felt terrible for how I treated this man. This time, I allowed the pain to surface. The anger of how mean I was to him. The regret for my lack of respect for how he was feeling. You see, I am seeking respect in my business for I am moving through the shadow of disrespect, and here it was. A shadow of disrespect that I had shown another. Before I knew it my mind flashed once more. To my dad. How I had arrived home from work one evening and his car was on the street. It was not in the driveway. I decided to be helpful and go inside the house, in the eeriness of the late of the night, to collect his keys and move the vehicle to a safer location. The driveway of the neighbors’ property.

Only, as I reversed the station wagon, I heard a loud noise. I had caught the vehicle on a similar brick fence to the one I had crashed into a few years prior. I continued to reverse the car, ruining both the fence and the door of the vehicle. The car was parked in tragedy. It could not be moved without more trauma. The steel was broken. The paint gone. 

Why did I receive the exact same lesson? For I did not stop the first shadow, as such, it was seen again. This happens often in life. Your true function is to withdraw the darkness when it is disturbed. This stops the shadow from projecting further into time.

With terror inside, I crept into my parents’ room. I woke my dad. Telling him that I had an accident with his car. “What do you mean?” he asked. “You have your own car.” By the time my dad got up and witnessed what I had done, he was furious. Another headache that I had caused. You see, I could never do anything right for my dad. Here it was again. I failed once more.

It was an ongoing pattern between us. I was a pain in the a$%e, as he would say, and gave him another problem to deal with. These memories were long ago hidden. They were coming up to be truly forgiven and forgotten. For if it is not truly forgiven it hides inside, covering the truth of your light. 

In the last week, I have been moving through The True Healing with Dad Workbook. A ten (10) day program that seeks to heal your relationship with your dad. And now, things are being dislodged within me. How does this make me feel? I feel sad that I did the wrong thing by those that wanted the best for me. For example, I never did offer to pay for my boyfriend's car or his parents’ fence. And nor did I understand the worry I put my dad through. It was always about me and how I felt I was being treated. The Treasure Map has shown me the fault within. I had no respect for others or what they had. I did not respect myself either at this time, as I was moving through an eating disorder.

Of course, things have changed greatly now. I am simply not the person I was 30+ years ago. Luckily, I have received miraculous healing. But I need to forgive myself for this behavior of mine. It is easy to accuse another of being mean and nasty, but what about how I treated these men as I moved through the terrible teens.

Everything hidden within needs to be looked at and truly forgiven to become free from. Whilst you hide the past and do not clean it up, it forms a barrier concealing the right mind of wholeness, holiness and happiness. Had I not of completed The True Healing with Dad Workbook, these memories would be hidden inside. Continuing to keep my light concealed. You must mentally clean up the hidden hate and secret sin to find your way into the light that grants the happy dream in time.

If you are not enjoying a beautiful and kind relationship with your dad, then you have true healing into wholeness to do. Whether your dad is close by but still so far away, or you have lost contact with him through death or ego destruction you have the power of Perfect Love within to change this story. To move it from suffering to salvation. As is what I have done.

Gratefully, I received so much healing between my dad and I in his last years. I was gifted a chance to stand up and share my skills with him. I might not be the best driver on four wheels, but I am great at taking care of someone that is sickly. I was gifted with empathy and the true healing of The Treasure Map, of course.

My relationship with my dad was greatly changed in the last decade of his life. In fact, in the final few months he would often thank me, telling me that he could not get through without having me by his side. This relationship was transformed for I kept on truly forgiving it all. You clean within with The Treasure Map, until separation is no more but sameness is true.

To all those that I have hurt through time, please forgive me. You see, the ego loves to blame. But in truth, we have all been hurt and we have all hurt. It is simply the story of separation. 

If you would like to begin your true healing with your relationship with your dad, then head to the link below to find out more. It is never too late to remember the light within that connects you to your dad throughout time and into eternity. A love that is kind and not cruel.

The True Healing with Dad Workbook

Much love, peace, and Truforgiveness,