Spirit Guides

Since the late 1990s I had given free mediumship readings to many in different parts of the world. Never charging for this spiritual connection that I have been granted. In fact, I have had many mediums that I have met comment on my own spirit guide. "Whomever he is, he is powerful indeed." I would agree.

In the early 2000s - as I was first learning about truforgiveness meditations - my spirit guide would often take me out of my body, into different dimensions. Flying through a portal that took me into the future. Here, I saw The Treasure Map. She had not been born into consciousness yet. That would be another decade later.

My own spirit guide came to see me in form. In the body of a black greyhound. When COVID came to hit, he was with me in my apartment, as we were locked up together building this map to miracles for God. If I could describe this time together I would say it was my most enjoyable so far. In fact, as I walked with Mr J I could feel my being, 'It is an honor to walk beside you.' I was the luckiest girl in the world, to have time with him. For to sit with him in his presence of Perfect Love, was a gift of grace. There are no words to actually describe this. For words do no justice.

Had I not have been in the presence of such perfection, I am not sure that I could have consciously known what greatness was. He loved everyone. A natural healer. Although one morning I tried to usher him to say hello to another dog. The owner said they were friendly. I pushed Mr J forward. He did not want to go. The dog then lunged to attack him. In this moment I could see how great his discernment was. I needed to watch and listen.

There was an unspoken communication between us. My soul was craving this. I was tired of communicating via the wrong mind. I needed to find those that would speak to the right mind, and Mr J was great at this.

I have always known that animals are so much more than what the ego-mind teaches. I was aware of this, although there have been times I too have not treated animals with respect. 

I was fishing, from a pier. Something that I did once and not again. Fresh into my teens, I managed to get the catch. As I reeled this fishy in, it was soon on the wharf with me. I could hear the thinking of the fish. It was flapping frantically. 'Get into the water. Get into the water. Get into the water.' Before I knew it, I was the one that was in the water. Such is the severity of my own sensitivity. I was heartbroken at what I had done.

 Being is being, even though the body deems difference is true. Seek not to follow the wrong mind but to discover the right, that leads to truth, trust and totality.

Mr J is an incredible teacher. There was no slight, but he was always in the right mind, not the wrong. Although, he once did stand in front of me and snarl with his teeth to a man and his dog that were headed close, in a disgruntled mood. He was seeking to protect me. 

Most of us are in the wrong mind and not the right, where Truforgiveness is granted. Let me explain more. For there are two minds, thus two thought systems. To know truth you must first escape the wrong mind, atone for the darkness within, then the door to the right mind in the subconscious will open. Here are the true & positive Thoughts You share with God.

You cannot trust the wrong mind of ego thinking. For it seeks to keep you trapped to its thought system of separation and specialness. It teaches that to forgive is to say so and let it go. To turn a blind eye. To do all you can to steer clear of guilt. Why would the ego teach you that guilt is bad and should be denied? Because the light of salvation - the right mind - has been hidden underneath the shadows of separation that spin the story of time.

I have also told you that blame is the outward projection of an inward condition. For the true cause of all suffering is the mistaken belief that separation from Source is true. It is not true, the belief in separation, but this is revealed via the right mind of wholeness, holiness and happiness. For those caught in the shadows of separation, sin, guilt, and fear seem true. Your true function is to find your way through the darkness to return to the right mind where hurt and harm cannot be found.

 The story of suffering cannot be denied. It must be cleaned up. And one way to do this is via The Treasure Map.

Right now, I am moving through my own shadows of suffering. Late last year, my spiritual guide that came to form - as a beautiful black greyhound - told me that he would be going Home. I cried tears of agony. He was beyond anything or anyone I have known in time. In fact, I would go so far as to describe him now as my first true love in this lifetime, even though I have had other's that I have loved and been loved by. But nothing came close to the beauty of this being. He is majestical.

Looking back, I can see that he could see his time was coming to an end. And he sought to warn me. In fact, I did all I could to protect him. I stopped taking him in the car - for fear of an accident - and corrected his diet, although it was extremely clean. I was also aware of the neighbor's cat and the issue of this unfriendly creature coming into the backyard.

I spoke up to them. Warning of impending danger. I was not heard. They did not seem worried. I did my best to manage this situation for the good part of a year.

The day Mr J got attacked by the cat I had kept him out of the backyard for two weeks prior, as the neighbors had decided that the cat would be an outdoor one, when the sun was out. Her presence in the backyard was often. After this two week period, Mr J went to the backdoor to go outside into the sun. I had a moment. "Am I going to keep him as a prisoner, or am I willing to give him his freedom?" I decided on the latter.

Not long after there was a commotion in the garden. 

As things would turn out, even though Mr J was stitched up, received antibiotics and pain medication, he suddenly dropped dead. The night he passed I dreamt of him. He told me that he got an infection from the cat scratch and this is what killed him. 

To say I was devastated was an understatement. Then, fury inside grew.

I have had people around me say that I teach Truforgiveness and that I need to let this go. But right now, I am stuck in the shadows. I am not in my right mind. My true function is to clean up this guilt - the blame and shame - that I am moving through. Blaming my neighbors for not listening to my warnings, and my own shame for not taking him back to the vets when I noticed a rash appearing.

Whilst my right mind knows it is a dream to wake from and not be defined by, I am not in my right mind now. I screamed a few weeks back, ranted and raved, as I am moving through the shadow of murder. I feel like my beloved was stolen from me. I cannot deny this. I must clean it from within. Until I arrive at the true cause, some aspect of the misperception that I have murdered God - as part of the misperception of separation - to play god myself in time.

Right now, night after night I have nightmares. Stress coursing through my body. Something I have not experienced for a very long time. It feels like I have lost God. For this creature was the closest to Perfect Love that I have known.

You see, you cannot get into the right mind until you purify the darkness. The ego teaches that a spiritually advanced person is one that stays calm and composed. And this does hold true from the right mind, but many false teachers have now appeared - still bound to the wrong mind - that have taught themselves to not react. The "pure no reaction" belongs to the right mind, where this mind of wholeness and holiness teaches it is a dream not definition.

I will find myself back in this right mind, after I have cleaned up the darkness within that I have now found. The shadows of disrespect and not being believed, are but two I am moving through. I am also under grief and guilt.

In fact, after this "tragedy" as God once said to me, I was also told that it has destroyed two families. Mine is in disarray right now. But I must take the suffering to become saved. This is how we shall wake. Not denying the darkness and pretending all is well. But rather to reclaim the right mind where wholeness and holiness holds true. 

I must be clear. My reaction to the intensity of the grief I have been moving through, for I have not been pained or punished in such a manner prior, is mine to clean up. Yes, I am stuck in blame, but I must withdraw this. I am not there yet. It may take me a few months, it could take an entire lifetime. You simply do not know the severity of the shadows until you are in them and then freed.

Two decades ago I would have gone to the neighbor and said, "Are you okay? It is fine. I forgive this. It was a mistake. We are all good." Now, I know better. The darkness within cannot be hidden. It must be truly forgiven with FAITH. To enable you to move from the wrong mind and back into the right, which is what The Treasure Map grants. 

For the past five years I have had Mr J assist me to build The Treasure Map. He often communicated to me in my evening dream state. In fact, the day that he passed I felt his spirit cradle me. "Believe in yourself." He asserted. This was his parting treasure.

I have walked this world for five decades, and in all the people that I have met, even some famous, no one has come close to the being that is Mr J. He has been thrown away by the ego-mind, as though he was less worthy than a human.

You do not know what anything is for. You see, the darkness in the subconscious is not nice. It is dirty and demoralizing. Fear not this. Continue to forgive within to change your mind from wrong to right, and you will find truth, trust and totality in the right mind of revelation. From here, our true Self can be found. As we sleep and dream that death in duality is true.

You cannot deny the darkness. It must be cleaned up from within. And it is a process. One of purification - enlightenment - that leads to awakening.

This tragedy that I am moving through is assisting my own awakening. Allowing me to dissolve more hidden hate and secret sin that covers the right mind of Perfect Love. One day I will be grateful, but that will be when Truforgiveness has been granted. As I said, I am not there. I cannot say "I forgive you," for that is not true right now. I still have the shadows of hate and harm to clean up from within. And there are many parts to this shadow of "tragedy" that I am moving through.

You too must clean up the darkness within as you make the move from separate to the same, Perfect Love. This is what the neighbor must do as well. However, if I did not have The Treasure Map at this time, I am not sure I would have survived this shadow that seeks cruelty.

The darkness within must be disturbed, in order for you to open the door that conceals the right mind, where God is. For example, now that I am back in darkness, I am dedicating time each day to my Truforgiveness practice. And a few days after Mr J descended his body I had a dream. It conveyed that I needed to dedicate an hour a day to cleaning up self-belief. Why? For the wrong mind seeks to conceal the right mind. To keep truth out of consciousness. As such, I am doing so. An hour day of The Believe in Self Treasure Map Meditation & Giftbook.

So, how does this true healing happen? Your thought is purified from fear to love. Two days after beginning this treasure map I found myself driving. I did not feel strong enough to drive, I was hungry. Then a thought moved through me. I can do it. I don't need the food. All will be okay. It was not consciously controlled. It is purification, from terror to truth.

Much love, peace, and Truforgiveness,